“Gimme Shelter” swirling around my head, in my veins, clinging to sinewy bits of my conscience.
At once feel dangerous, on edge, about to whirling dervish it all to hell. Smokes, drinks needed.
“Rape, murder! It’s just a shot away.” Indeed they are, capital in the moment. Transported, transfixed, transmogrified. Music as chemical voodoo, catalyst, personal sea level, to move to somewhere anywhere but here, now.
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Grew up small, the runt, smart enough to know to fight with your mouth and brain rather than your fists.
Small town rundown, 20 years in the past and pasty white. Quiet , quaint, protected and staid.
Nothing ever happened, except the car crash in the old Chevy that suspended my five-year-old life for a while.
God was everywhere and three times a Sunday. Parents were like fire and water; sometimes I got burned, sometimes I got drowned. Mom played hymns, Dad sang gospel in a quartet. Looked forward to the piano dusting that would lead to the enviable boogie-woogie breakout – that was more like it.
Music saves.
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Later night crank-fest (parents gone) of Rush and Zeppelin out of 50’s stereo distortion, brother freaked me out with the beginning of “Detroit Rock City”. Car crash.
House full of usual suspects: Boston, Alan Parsons, Elton John, Cars, James Taylor and Bread.
In this case, Marvin Gaye saves.
Chose to remedy the situation and start to grow my own.
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Earned a Beatles at the Hollywood Bowl LP in a walkathon – even knew to leave the Steve Miller. That was the start. Albums were expensive on an allowance where frugality was pervasive. Hey, I was 10 and Jimmy Carter was president (the best of the past 40 years).
Paper route brought the rest: Police, Monks, more Beatles.
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Lennon dies, puts my young world in an uproar. Collect all papers and special mags (some still remain to this day). Music becomes conviction. Music is invincibility. A world to return to, to take a hit off the musical spectre. “Let me take you down – ‘cause I’m going to...”
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Forward 16 years to university. Musical journey truly begins. Doors opened to everything, no borders, just like Ellington said, “Two kinds of music: good and bad.” Spider worked his magic. Everything was on the table. Next came the radio show and LP library: Captain Beefheart, Coltrane, Replacements, Lost Patrol, Primitives, Husker Du, Eugene Chadbourne, Minutemen, Butthole Surfers, Mingus, Motorhead, Monk.
Had a blast, late-night broadcast free-form freedom. It’s been this way ever since.
Always tell a lot about someone from their musical tastes. Perhaps more than anything else.
It’s the “gateway drug” to all their opinions, feelings and place in the world.
Save that for next time…